IDEAS flying through my head!!

Well I've been praying for months now on what God wants me to be doing. I know he just doesn't want me to sit on a bump on a log. So now that my bible study is over, we had our children's memorial, and God has given me peace. I'm ready to go.

I still am having a hard time hearing him. Now I am questioning: Am I hearing what I want to hear or am I hearing what He is saying to me? Our my ideas from Him or me? How can I differentiate which one it is?

So, I decided that I'm going to go where I am needed and where my heart is. (HOPE Pregnancy Care Center & worship on Wednesdays') Now I feel that He is telling me what He wants me to do. Maybe He just wanted me to stand up? I feel so good beyond what I can say. I'm excited about the plans God has for me. I know they are going to be AWESOME!! Please pray that I will hear His plan and not my own.

What do you want me to do now LORD?

What do you want me to do now LORD? Pastor Ronnie's sermon today was on what does the LORD want us to do? Are we on the LORD's team? Well,I'm ready LORD. I am ready for what ever you want me to do. I'm ready to go where you want me to go and I am ready to say what you want me to say. Since we had are Memorial I feel ready to go do what God has for me. I feel peace. I feel joy. God has truly blessed us. I am ready, LORD. I'm have been praying for an answer where He wants me. I have ideas but, I want to follow what He wants me to do rather what I want to do. I want to do His agenda, not mine. I'm so excited to get started. So keep me in your prayers and I got to go get busy. God's Peace and Joy be with you.

Our Memorial Folder

I will praise you; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are your works and that my soul knows right well. - Psalm 139:14

In Loving Memory of...

Steven Austin-
'96- would 12 years old

Mary Dawn-
'98- would be 10 years old

Patrick Issac-
'00- would be 8 years old

Chasen James-
'01- would be 7 years old

Mercy Leigh-
'02- would be 6 years old

Before I formed you in the belly, I knew you... - Jeremiah 1:5



Before I was born the Lord called me; from my birth he has made mention of my name. -Isaiah 49:1


Steven Austin-
Steven means crowned & Austin means majestic. I always wanted a son named after my brother Clayton Austin.

Mary Dawn-
I had a dream of Mary Dawn the night I lost her. I knew her face and called her by name. Mary is my mother's name and her mother's name. Dawn is my best friend Kasha's middle name.

Patrick Issac-
I was in California and met a couple with twin boys named, Aidan and Patrick. I knew then I wanted to name him Patrick Issac. Patrick means nobleman and Issac means laughter.

Chasen James-
Chasen came from one of my students named Chase. He told me that his name meant, "Chasen after God". Chasen means hunter. Aaron picked out James which means supplanter.

Mercy Leigh-
God has granted us Mercy and it's a beautiful name that means merciful and compassionate. Leigh means poetic in Irish. Leigh is my aunt Dana's middle name.

You number my wanderings; Put my tears into Your bottle... -Psalm 56:8

Love Ya'll!!!

Our Memorial

Our Memorial for our five children was beautiful! I was praying to God these last couple of days before. I told God that I would have no expectations. Lord, you blew me out of the water!!! It was so wonderful! The flowers came out wonderfully, the music was awesome, and Pastor Ronnie's comforting words came straight from you. Thank you for overflowing our cup LORD!!! I bawled and bawled my eyes out. Almost all of our family came. Blessing after blessing you have given us. Ron, Shelly, Reesie and Cassie came even though they had a wedding to go to. Thank you for coming. It meant so much to me. Candice and Flint came; Praise God for your little one on the way. Crystal and her little Evie came. Crystal, your little one is with Jesus playing with my little one. Brandy, Josh, JD, Tyson, and Piper; JD you really blessed us when you came and sat down on Aaron's lap. Pastor Kris; thank you for all your encouraging words. Miss Judy; Thank you for all your support and prayers. It meant so much that you would come. Wayne and Lisa; thank you for being the dear brother and sister in Christ. Thank you for the flowers, what a sweet gesture. Daniel; thank you for your prayers and sweet words of comfort. Ammon, Trina; always remember our littles ones are playing together with Jesus. My brother Clayton, Bree and Cohen; thank you for being supportive. My sis, Susie and little Sarah; God bless you for making this day a piority. Papa Ken, Mom, and Grandma Victoria; thank you for all your support and help with my memorial folder, flowers, and baby feet and rings. They will always be precious and a reminder right next to my cross that our babies are with Jesus. Mama and Daddy; it meant so much that ya'll came. Thank you for all your support, help with the memorial folder, and luncheon. Thank you Ronnie and Dawn for all that you do. for your prayers and encouragement and shoulder for me to cry on. Much Appreciated to all. We love you!! God over flowed our cup! Blessing to those He uses!!!