When the sky seems to be falling...

When the sky seems to be falling... I will praise You in the storm. This is week has been so hard with trials and problems coming left & right. I seem to roll with the punches until my character was challenged when some lies were told about me. I cried & cried (Put my tears into Your bottle;
-Psalm 56:8; praying for days for guidance, peace and some joy. It was just what I recieved; guidance to stand on truth, not hold grudges over the lies, to confront the lies instead of the people, stand on honesty, be open with all making sure my end of the relationships stood on intregrity. Peace that God knew the truth & that I have so many friends and family who stood up for me, beside me, prayed for me and still continue to pray. Joy came no matter my circumstances that I knew God was smiling down lifting me up while I praising Him through this storm. Thank you God for being with me and giving me such great friends & family that are soooo good to me!! You overflow my cup LORD!!!

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

[Chorus:]
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

[Chorus]

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

[Chorus x2]

Such beautiful words from Casting Crowns!!!

Are we trying to be strong in ourselves or are we strong because we are leaning on God?

Are we trying to be strong in ourselves or are we strong because we are leaning on God?It seems that the trials and tribulations never let up and the hail seems to fall bigger & harder. "The pain that you have been feeling does NOT compare to the JOY that is coming!"-Steven Vance I have been praying for a very long time & I am wondering what to do... Seeking God and His plan... when we seem to be at your wits end and all seems lost in your circumstances...this is when we need to remember without adversity there are no miracles. Continue to pray pray pray and pray! Though the big lions or strong people may seem strong they will grow weak and hungry without God; even the little ones who seek God will lack nothing. Psalm 34:10, “The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good.” God is good to the willing, for He knows our hearts. If our hearts are not right with Him He tells us the way to get right with Him. When there seems like there are no doors or even windows open; wait it's amazing what opens when we wait on God instead of jumping up and banging down some door that looks good. it is amazing to me how God shows he is listening and how He cares. The only thing is are we willing to hear and follow. "He who has ears to hear, let him hear." Luke 14:35

"A bird doesn't sing because she has an answer, it sings because it has a song." - Maya Angelou

"A bird doesn't sing because she has an answer, it sings because it has a song."
-Maya Angelou

I read one of Maya Angelou's quotes yesterday and it got me really interested in what type of woman she is. So I googled her and found more words of wisdom from her. I saw this quote about the bird's song and fell in love with it. It means so much to me. I believe this goes along with praising God's name no matter our circumstances. It's not that we have the answers to everything or even to our problem that we are overwhlemed with but, it is that we sing and praise God for His character, His caring comfort, His warm unlatching embrace, His never ending mercy, and His passionte unwavering love.

Thank you Lord for giving me a song to sing and I will sing it in praise to You!


"O sing unto the LORD a new song: sing unto the LORD, all the earth." -Psalm 96:1

"And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD." -Psalm 40:3

When More is More than Enough

Have you ever felt like that your trials are just too much for you to bear? That what you have on your plate is more than enough for you to bear? Many people say God will not give you what you can not handle. But I say oh yes He will! Is your mouth dropping to the floor? He will give you too much for you to bare BY yourself. He gives us and allows things in our life so we will call His name and lean on Him. But He will Never EVER give you too much for Him to handle. He is more than sufficient.
In 2 Corinthians 12:9 He says,
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.". He is more than enough!

There is nothing that He can not handle. He is the ALMIGHTY GOD! He can handle not just your trial but every trial, EVERYTHING and Everyones'. The question is are we giving it to Him? Are we trying to do this on our own? Are we trying to find our solutions? Or are we asking for His help? For His solutions? Are we picking the closest and easiest solution? Are we lying it ALL down at His feet? Truthfully I have been there and sometimes I find myself trying to go back there. I know I can not go a day without Him. He is my Everything!!

He can handle can handle my problems, my health, my relationships, my every trial. And He has a solution for each and everyone of them. He will bring along the right doctor, the right job, right person to help... He will bring me comfort and peace in the mean time. The question is are we listening? Are we allowing Him to be Lord of our life and Comforter of our soul? Lord I will wait on You and Your solutions, You and Your comfort. Lord, help me know what you want me to do. I know that you are here for me and I lay it all down at your feet. Help me Lord not to pick it up again. With You I can do ALL things!
"I can do all things through Christ, Who strengthens me"!!! Phil 4:13

HE LOVES ME!!!!

I am amazed that HE LOVES ME!!! Let me yell that, "HE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS MEEEEEEEE!!!! He loved me before He made me clean. HE loved me so much He made me clean! He loves me no more when I am good and He loves me no less when I mess up. What an AWESOME GOD!!!! Thank you for taking me just where I am. Picking me up when I fall. COMPLETE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!!!! TODAY IS JOYFUL not because of my circumstances but because the LORD made it and HE LOVES ME!!!! 1 John 4:19 We love Him because HE first loved us. .....

SHALOM.....

Shalom means peace in hebrew. Shalom is just what God has given me. After our last miscarriage in September I grieved and mourned heavily for 3 days. But through those long 3 days and even after the many hard days that have come God has given me just that, Peace. I have such Peace that God has given me through God's word.

When King David lost his first son with Bathsheba the servants asked him why he wasn't mourning and grieving like he did before the baby died. He replied, "Now he (the baby) has died; why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me." - 2 Samuel 12:23

My babies will never return to me on this earth, but I will go to them.

I've been praying for the name that God wants me to give this little one. The Peace He has given me is beyond understanding. Just trusting God and His plan for me. The name God has given me is Shalom Marie. Shalom meaning Peace and Marie after Grandma Donna and Charice. After two people I adore.

Shalom, I miss you and love you. Mama adores you and so excited that I someday I will be there with you. I will hold you and adore you. Till then know I think of you often. Can't wait to hear you sing to me, call me Mama and play games in the grass. Love you forever and I will remember you always, Love your Mama.

Celebrating LIFE!!!

For a long time now... I have been mourning and grieving for my little ones, our dreams to have a family... It has been my greatest battle in my life. It seems that lately everyone is having babies, pregnant or little ones running around at the ages our little ones would be. Costant reminders that my arms are empty and that my dreams may never come true. But today I have victory! Victory in this not because my circumstances have changed but because Jesus has changed my heart. I can have JOY no matter my circumstances. I wroke this morning ready for this new day that God has given me. He has given me a new outlook on this life! Everything is a blessing! Air to breathe, eyes to open in the morning, lips to sing praises to His name, ears to hear the music, hands to hold, feet to move. So blessed! More than I will ever know! I am Celebrating not just my Life but the Life of others; loved ones, family, friends, and people I don't even know... Celebating the life of my lil' ones that I will one day get to hold them, touch them, sing to them... but more than that I Celebrating LIFE of JESUS! Because Jesus lived a sinless life, died the death that I/we deserve, and rose again and went to prepare us a place! LIFE is not merely this life but ETERNAL LIFE!!! That you God for what you did for me as if I might be the only be the only one! Thank you for opening my eyes, and changing my heart! You are AMAZING GOD! Thank you for the joy that comes with the morning! Psalm 30:5.