Day #13 I am grateful for computers.

I am grateful for computers because I love to write though if I did everything with pen and paper I would be here forever because I hate messy papers. Lol! Ok, I am a lil’ OCD in my own way. :b

Day #12 I am grateful for my close dear friends.

I have many of them, the more I think about it the more I amazed how many I have and how amazingly they came into my life. Though sometimes God brings us into each other’s path and leads us to another area doesn’t mean that we will be apart. God has a journey for each of us, though we may not be in physical vicinity of one another doesn’t mean our friendship is strained or gone. I am amazed at the people God has given me and no matter how long time has passed; we just pick up where we left off like there is no problem. I am so excited for these relationships He has brought me and the relationships He will bring into my path. Our my sweet loved ones, you know who you are, I adore you! I am mentally hugging you! Love you forever and always!

Day #11 I am grateful for technology.

I am grateful for technology; that we can at a push of a button or a few buttons contact our loved ones in a just a few minutes. We so take for granted that we can phone, Skype, email, Facebook… and keep in touch with those we love. I so appreciate that each day I can talk to my hubby, that I can call my mama, that I can email pictures to my friends and share what is going on in our lives. I am so grateful to live in this day and age to have this wonderful opportunity to stay close to all my loved ones!

Day #10 I am grateful for my grandparents.

I am grateful for my grandparents: my mother’s parents (I never got to meet her father because he died when she was 11, her mother died when I was 6, Grandmama Mary was very sweet and the memories I have of her are all dear to my heart), my father’s parents, Grandma Dixie and Granddaddy Fuzz, who have been a major part of my life, and Mafalda Cannone who adopted me as her granddaughter. My Grandma Dixie who said, “the next one is mine” and kept her word , she rocked me, took care of me and prayed over and for me. My Granddaddy Fuzz has me wrapped around his little finger as he always has. All because two people have fell in love so many wonderful people have come into my life and most of all I was born. I thank you all for loving me unconditionally. To my adopted Grandmother Mafalda, who I am so grateful for, thank you for always listening, loving and praying for me. I am so blessed that these people are a part of my life and the love they give and share. Thank you for loving me like no other.

Day #9 I am grateful for books.

I am grateful for books; I loved reading and looking at books as a child though that passion dwindled away as I got older. It was boring and too time consuming to read. Though after I became an adult I began to read again and the passion came back. Aaron has told me one day that I had so many books I could start my own library. When I replied with a smile and enthusiastic YES, Can I? He said, No. Oh well, LOL!! Though I cannot have my own library; I still love books, love to read and research new things. I have met too many that cannot read or don’t want to read and it breaks my heart; they are missing out on some many things. There are so many books and adventures and so little time. Good night y’all going to go read before bed. Sweet reads before sweet dreams!

Day #8 I am grateful for my country.

I am so grateful to live in this country of liberty and opportunity. I am so grateful to have the freedom to worship God the way I believe He has called me to do. I am so grateful that we have a rich history of people who have stood up for freedom and liberty. Even though our country has major problems and major failures, I love her and I will stand by her. My life is all about God, Family and Country. America I believe it is still a beautiful and wonderful place to live, work and raise a family. I am so proud that I have family and friends throughout the past and present that have fought and are fighting for the land of the free. I am so grateful to all have served our country. I salute the flag and our soldiers for I know that we would not be here if our people and soldiers did not stand for our Constitution. God bless America and our troops!

Day #7 I am grateful for God’s Word.

I am so grateful for God’s word, The Bible. I so grateful I can trust it and rely on it in every aspect of my life. I am grateful that I can trust that God cannot lie (Numbers 23:19, Malachi 3:6, 1 Samuel 15:29, Romans 3:4, Titus 1:2, Hebrews 6:18), I can trust his character (Isaiah 40:8, 1 Peter 1:25) because I trust His word, I trust his word because I can trust His character. It brings me guidance, hope, comfort, and peace that go beyond understanding (Philippians 4:7). God is good all the time and all the time God is good!

Thankful Month Day #6

Day #6 I am grateful for my babies. 

                       I am grateful for my babies even though they are not here with me and they are with God, they have taught me so much. I have learned that you can love someone that you have never met. That it would be wonderful to say hello before you had to say goodbye. If I can survive loosing you, I can survive anything. That life is all about trusting God and not your circumstances. I learned that I needed to have Mercy before I could have Grace. Though the pain still hurts from my empty arms, I wouldn’t trade you for anything for you. I love you and cannot wait to see you and hold you in my arms. I have learned that I can trust in God with anything because I can trust Him with everyone of you and that y’all are happy and content while waiting for me to come home.

I love each one of you, Love Mama.

 (Psalm 139:13-18)

Thankful Month Day #5

Day #5 I am thankful for my siblings.

 

                        God has blessed me with a great family; my siblings, Susan and Clayton, are so dear to me. They are such blessings to me and I so appreciate them putting up with my bratty years and forgiving me for being so cruel and for sticking up for me when needed. I so appreciate their friendship and excited that I am an aunt to some of the greatest kids I know. I thank you for all the good memories and many more to come! Thank you for all you done and do, it does not go unnoticed.

 Love you forever and always!

Thankful Month!! Day #4

Day #4 I am thankful for my friends. 

God has sent me so many friends and loved ones! Some being blood while others are just knitted in my heart. Though time may run away from us and us not staying close, we are always like we never left. So appreciate all that they have done for us and all your support! We love you forever and always!!

⁹ Two are better than one because they have a good return for their hard work. ¹⁰ If either should fall, one can pick up the other. But how miserable are those who fall and don’t have a companion to help them up! ¹¹ Also, if two lie down together, they can stay warm. But how can anyone stay warm alone? ¹² Also, one can be overpowered, but two together can put up resistance. A three-ply cord doesn’t easily snap. 

- Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

 

Thankful Month!! Day #3

Day #3 I am thankful for my parents.

My parents are so special to me! Thank you for putting up with me, for lovingly disciplining me and spanking my butt when I need one, sticking by me even when I fell on my face, helping me up when I am down, forgiving me, making me laugh and learn to laugh at myself; teaching me to stand up for what I believe in even when it is not popular, teaching me to that marriage isn't easy but it is worth it, that family is important and teaching me to love unconditionally to all who come into my path. I love you! Always and Forever!!

Thankful Month! Day #2

 

Day #2 I am thankful for is Aaron, my hubby.

He is my best friend, my life, my rock, my lover, my companion, my partner, my everything!! We have been friends for 16 years, been married 14 years! It has been many Wonderful years and many more to come BeBe! You are my beloved and I am yours (Song of Solomon 6:2), Always and Forever!!

Thankful month! Day #1

Though ever day should be thankful day, I do think it is good to voice our thankfulness and say what we are thankful for. So this month I am posting what I am thankful for.
I know I am behind, so be patient with me as I catch up!

#1 thing I am thankful for is GOD.

I know He is taboo to talk about but I cannot keep my mouth shut. My GOD is amazing! He is my Rock (Psalm 62:7), my Comforter (Isaiah 61:2; Psalm 86:17), my Shield (Psalms 5:11-12), my Shepherd (Psalm 18:1-2; Psalm 23), my Strength (Psalm 18:1-2; Philippians 4:12-13), my Light and Salvation (Isaiah 12:2; Psalm 27:1) , my Resurrection and Eternal Life (John 11:25-26), my Victory (1 John 5:4), my Refuge (Psalm 9:9-10), and my Friend (John 15:5).

He has changed my life! He gives me hope and peace in the midst of the roaring storms I have, do, and will face. He will never forsake or leave me (Deuteronomy 31:6, Hebrews 13:5). He has written me on the palm of His hand (Book of Isaiah 49:16) and there I am safe and nothing can separate us (John 10:27-30; Romans 8:38-39). He is mine and I am His (Isaiah 43:1, Isaiah 62:1-12). Forever and Always I will be His! Thank you LORD!!

helping loving hand or demeaning pointing finger? Which one will you give?

                            
             Saw a video tonight that touched my heart. I hope it touches yours too.

    

         These girls and women need us; they need a helping loving hand
not a demeaning pointing finger?       
                                             Which one will you give?

Completely Amazing isn't it!!!

Someone told me their plan of salvation yesterday: she gave a list of what that I needed to do and have to spend eternity in what she called heaven. It doesn't matter what her list was, because many people have their own list; but we need not others opinion on what God wants and what they think we need to let us into the pearly gates. We need to know what God wants.

In the Bible the plan of salvation (plan to get to heaven and be with Him) is clear.

#1- We need to realize that we are sinners in need of a Savior and realize we don't deserve nothing but hell and that we cannot do anything earn it. (Isaiah 64:6, Romans 3, Romans 6:23, Ephesians 2:8-9 ) For a cancer patient does not realize they need a cure until they realize they have a disease. Same with a person does not realize that they need a savior until they see themselves as a sinner.

#2- Repent (not just be sorry but to TURN away from sin) and Believe (Jesus is who He said He is and the Gospel =good news) (John 14:16, John 4: 13 & 21-24, Romans 6:23, John 3:16, Mark 1:15, 1Cor 15:1-4, Romans 4:25-5:2, Romans 10:9-11 &13, 1 John 1:3-4, Acts 4:12, Galatians 3:26)

Take the song Amazing Grace 2nd verse:
 
"T'was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed."

                            John Newton (1725-1807) was a slave trader and owned a slave boat that transported thousands of slaves, he wrote this song, Amazing Grace. In the second verse he shows that he learned that NOTHING but the GRACE of GOD could save him and he could NOT earn the GRACE of GOD, the second line of the second verse shows that he realized that only Grace can release his fears of Hell. Oh how precious it is when we realize that we cannot earn God's love for He loved us first (Romans 5:8), that we cannot earn God's grace (Ephesians 2:8), for it is for His glory for no one can boast. Once you are adopted into God's family then you are His, for He will never leave you more forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6, Hebrews 13:5). This is why it is called, Amazing Grace my friend. Completely Amazing, isn't it?!!
                                            

  Praying for your chains to be gone.

Radical Jesus

                      Watched a video today on Persecuted Christians in North Korea (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q-yoQwdRAHQ), when people are being beaten, imprisoned, tortured and killed for their faith in Jesus. Yet, we in the western world are afraid if someone calls us a name or DE-friend us on facebook. Do we really believe in Jesus, or do we just like the idea of Him? I said, one time to a real good Christian friend of mine who is a straight shooter, "I would die for Jesus". She said I wondered that a lot about us American Christians, "Why would be willing to die for Him if we are not willing to live for Him?" Really, got me to thinking, am I really living for Him? Am I scared to tell others about Him and the gospel? Lord, help me to be bold in my faith. Help me to stand up for your truth. Help me follow the Radical Jesus.


                       There are so many who are taking the stand and following Christ with their lives and even some with their lives. Lord, help me follow you.

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Divine Appointment

          Yesterday I got to speak with a sweet young lady who asked me some questions and made many of the same statements word for word that I said 10 years ago. It was amazing conversation and so glad that I was there. It was a divine appointment; I truly feel that God set it all up and I was truly blessed by it. I thought I would share some links to what I shared with her and others.

          The first link is pro life physicians addresses many of the so called reasons to have abortion legal, all that I stated as my reasons 10 years ago. (In case of rape, in case of the health of the mother...)  http://www.prolifephysicians.org/rarecases.htm

           The second link is Maafa 21 - the history and modern black genocide in the 21st Century and yes it is happening today. http://www.maafa21.com/ check out the full length film for free on youtube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02t3Wqg-4Iw

            The third link is a documentary of university students who are asked questions about the Holocaust and Hitler and then comparing it with abortion. It is amazing how many people did not know what the Holocaust was or who Hitler was. One stating, "Didn't he have a little mustache?", but did not know much more about him. This short 33 min. long that will rock your world. http://180movie.com/

           The fourth link is two websites that women and others have gone to show support and encouragement to those who have had an abortion(s). http://www.silentnomoreawareness.org/ http://www.surrenderingthesecret.com/#!prettyPhoto

            I challenge you to read, watch, and think about these questions and statements; it isn't just about your life but others. It's isn't just about a baby in the womb but the mother who is carrying their unborn child, who has to live with that decision for the rest of her life. So many women have told me, "I wish I would of known what I know now".

            I am so glad that someone who loved me enough, even though I was a staunch and angry pro-choicer, to kindly ask me questions, "Do you know the development of the baby in the womb?" "Do you know the different types procedures of the abortions and what time of development they are done at?" I did not know the answers to these questions; he kindly asked me, "Shouldn't you know what you are supporting before you support it or turn a blind eye to the issue?" I was amazed that me, who is always speaking about how we should be educated on our decisions and views; that I was not educated in my views. I took his challenge and it has changed my life. Now I challenge you to fully educate yourself, and truly think about what your supporting and why. For I truly believe that you will moved to not only change your own views, but be moved to help lovingly move others to educate themselves and change their lives.

          

"...and you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free."
- John 8:32

It's not about being perfect, it's about being a better you.

        A lot has been going on in our lives, finally unpacking the last few boxes from our most recent move in the end of May. Yes, it's been almost 3 months but hey, I think that's a major accomplishment now that I really think about it. We have had a whole lot going on: having finals for school, me filling out financial aid for next year, finishing unpacking, organizing paper work, getting house ready and filling out paper work for home study for us to adopt. Let's just say I have been more than a little overwhelmed with it all. This morning, well, let's just say that I learned that some times you just need a friend to help you walk through the simple things to jump back into the groove. That is just what I had today. Thanks to my friend, Carla.

           I have been looking for paper work to fill out paper work for school and been looking for weeks now and was about to my last wit; one of my best friends, Carla, came over and helped me go through a ton of stacks of paper work to find two pieces of paper. It was Ridiculous! I have been working on becoming more organized in the last few years and little by little I am getting there but, today, I decided this has to get done and fast or I am going to go insane! I remember sitting there this morning and thinking I could sit here all day - for the rest of my life and beat my self up that I could not find those 2 pieces of paper and that I have had a mess or I can thank the Lord and Carla for helping me find it without me going crazy and move on. After finding the paper, finishing the paper work, I finally realized that I need to get over myself. I need to stop beating my self up for all the mistakes I have ever made. I need to quit thinking of the negative I have done and stop thinking about all the negative consequences those bad decisions can bring, but, thank God for all the blessings I have, the loved ones He has sent me, the lessons I have learned from those mistakes, and for the mercy and grace He has given me.

          I think a lot of time people dwell on their past, rather than focus on the present and look forward to the future. I know I am guilty of that one all the time. I realize now, that yes, I had boxes that had not been unpacked, paper work thrown in boxes during move, and being behind in my tasks. I realize now that I am more organized than I have ever been and I am becoming more and more organized as time goes by. I realized today that I am too hard on my self. If my loved one was struggling and beating themselves up like I do, I would be telling them they are being ridiculous. I do not hold any one to the standard I expect of myself. Why do I expect myself to have it all together when I do not expect everyone else to? Now there is nothing wrong with high expectations or being very organized, but it is ridiculous to beat yourself up for your mistakes. Realize that you made a mistake, say your sorry, get off your duff, make a change and move forward. Some times you need to give yourself a kick in the pants, a pep-talk, a pat on the back, a high-five (haha! that one looks a little funny, but it's all good!).

         It's not about being perfect, it's about being a better you. There is only one perfect man, Jesus. He knows we are not perfect (no one is good, not even one - Romans 3:10-12) and yet He loves us anyways (Romans 5:8). I want to be a better me; I want to be like Him. Each day striving forward to learning to learn from our mistakes and move forward. Carla showed me this sign tonight and I love it and want one, "HUMAN KIND, BE BOTH".   I see this quote as meaning be real and be kind. A wise man once told me, there are 3 things that we need to love life, "Love God, Love what God loves, and Love yourself because God loves you". I was reminded by this today. God sees us as we are, and knows us better than we know ourselves (Psalm 139) and yet He loves me anyways (Jeremiah 31:3). I am special to Him (Psalm 17:8), He calls my name (Isaiah 43:1) and draws me close (James 4:8). He wants me to be real and He wants me to be kind. This totally reminds me of one of my favorite quotes,  that I want you to remember too,

                        “You is kind. You is smart. You is important.”
                      ― Ailileen Clark (Kathryn Stockett, The Help).

          Remember that I love you and so does God!! Big hugs to you from me. XOXOXO

Stepping out...

It is amazing when you have confirmation at what you are to do with your life. It seems like everything just flows and the excitement is so amazing! I feel like I am on cloud nine! Nothing surpasses the feeling when you help someone else and see the smile on their face. Nothing else matters at that time, except that I was able to help someone else. Not that there will not be other things I will do in my life, I have many roles and goals though my main goal and main role is all wrapped up in one: it is to help others. Amazed at what I have experienced and the great people I have met and it so cool to see things all coming together. Though we have to step out in faith even though we do not know future or the full plan.

            I think a lot of the time we dwell on what we do not have or where we are or what our circumstances are instead of realizing that we are exactly where we are suppose to be. I am a firm believer in that everything happens for a reason; that does not mean I always like what happens but that I know that everything has a purpose (Romans 8:28). Surely helps me endure difficult situations or difficult people. Knowing that I have a lesson to learn from each situation, each person, and this truly makes me grateful for each and every thing.

           So grateful to those who support me and also those who don't. Because I have learned that we do not do what we do because we want everyone to agree or support us, because we will never get that. You have to do what is right no matter who supports or agrees with you. If you are doing it because it is right not to get a reward or be accepted. My wise friend said to me, "Your reward for doing what is right is that you did what was right. You're reward might show up today, tomorrow or even in this life but it will come." Truly wise words to remember. Character is built when you do what is right even it not accepted.(Hebrews 6:11-12)

             Learning to do what you are called to do is so empowering and overwhelming at the same time. A good friend told me tonight, "If you are fearful that is good, you are stepping out of your box and you are growing. Don't let fear hold your steps back." So true!

            Having faith in God's plan even though I do not know God's plan. Trusting Him and His word. (Hebrews 12:2) So excited!

                                      *step*

No matter what!!

               I have so been struggling lately; I feel like I am on an emotionally roller coaster that is never ending! I cried out to God this morning, "Lord, send me someone to help me!" and guess what He did and He did tonight. Boy is He fast! He sent me two good friends - my sistas, Sharon and Stacey. Oh how my heart is so overwhelmed and overflowing with gratitude and joy!! I cannot express how appreciative I am to God for caring and listening to my prayers and my sistas for listening to God promptings!! Oh how I am so grateful to my sistas for listening, loving, caring and so kindly giving me advice. Oh Lord, I am so grateful to You! I know that this journey is not easy and sometimes not fun though I am so grateful that You don't leave me alone and forsaken. You have sent me such good friends to help me through what ever you have placed in front of me. You never get done amazing me, LORD!! Tonight when I was getting ready for bed I was listening to my music, praying and praising God, thanking Him for answering my prayer today. As I prayed no matter what happens Lord, I will trust You and Your word and then on comes this song! My thoughts exactly!! NO MATTER WHAT!! Thank You LORD!!

                             

                             "I trust in you, LORD; I say, You are my God."

                                          - Psalm 31:14

Who are we missing?

                Last night I saw this short video that won the adult catalog 2013 Short Film Contest Winner and just had to share it and how it brings up questions that we need to be asking starting with Who are we missing?

                   What are we missing out of? Not just some adorable babies, not just daughters, sons, granddaughters, grandsons, nieces, nephews, cousins... We are missing over 55 million people who could change the world for the better; we are missing doctors, scientists, presidents, business owners, teachers... Who knows what these children could of became. Maybe we would have the cure of cancer or other diseases, maybe we would have another musical genius like Beethoven or Mozart, maybe another fantastic artist Micheal Angelo, Or inventors like Leonardo Da Vinci, or academic genius like Einstein. Think about what we are missing. We are missing a lot we are missing our future! Now that you know what we are missing, speak out, pass on, when you change your mind, you want others to realize what we are missing too. The answer to the question, What are we missing? is that we are missing BLESSINGS!! Let's not miss any more! Let's save our BLESSINGS!!

"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you,when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, 

the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them."

 - Psalm 139:13-16  

             If you have not see 180movie, check it out at http://180movie.com/ it will rock your world!

Friends are a blessing!!

              I am so grateful to my loved ones, some come in the way of family, others come in the way of friends; no matter what way they come I am overflowingly blessed. Oh how I appreciate all those I am blessed with. You never know who you have touched, so just love and pray for others. You may never know, though if someone has blessed you let them know. It means so much to hear that you were a blessing to others. Let me tell you that I am so appreciative of all the ones I have been blessed with.It has been said that "some people come into your life as a blessing and others come into your life as a lesson". Well you still be thankful for those you learn a lesson from for that is a blessing. Being appreciative of the lesson does not mean that you like the trial you learned the lesson from. Being grateful that something good came out of something negative, that is always a good thing.

                  It's amazing to me that God can use anything for good: no matter what it is, the good, the bad, the terrible and the ugly. He is so cool like that!

 

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose."
-Romans 8:28 (NIV)

 

                 You know it is amazing how and when many people come into my life; God has some excellent timing for sure, for sure!! I know that it was not by accident that you have come into my life and so glad our friendship doesn't come with a charge; for I could never afford you.  Thank you for all that you have done for me, it is so appreciative beyond words can express.

 

"A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need."
-Proverbs 17:17

          My prayer for you...

             

         I love you my friends no matter
how, when and why we met,
I am so blessed that we did!!
LOVE YOU!!!

It's all about meeting in the middle...

         There is this short video called, "It's not about the nail", that is so funny and real thought provoking on how we as women and men see things. This video makes fun of both sides and shows how we both can be so stubborn. We just need to meet in the middle sometimes; give in and let him try to fix it or give in and just listen to her. I got such a kick out of it, thought you would too and just wanted to share it will y'all too. Enjoy!

I am not giving up the fight, am I just choosing on what to fight over.

           I love love love technology and so grateful to be in this day and age though I am no computer whiz; I do really appreciate the ability to type faster than I can write as well as type into the Google bar and hit search on anything I would like to learn about. I absolutely love that I can keep in contact with loved ones within an instant with the strike of a few keys. I have also been a part of social media and I have loved it especially facebook, some times even too much! lol!
 
           Some people say they don't understand why I closed my account. Though I don't expect them to understand but just to respect my choice. Some of you may know I am going through some trying times and I feel that I need a break. So I took a few days off and when I came back it was soon back to the negativity and frustration. I know that me and many of my loved ones do not see eye to eye on many things, which I completely understand and accept. Though I think that some times it is easier to heal with not so much input from others. Please do not think I do not love ya or care since I closed my facebook account. Please know that I appreciate your calls, your messages, and your concern. I still very much would love to hear from you and keep in contact so, please stop by, call, write, text, and email. If you have a blog please send me a link for I would love to see it. I just need to focus on other things than facebook right now and need to press forward. One of my favorite quotes is by Helen Keller, who is a major over comer.

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it."
Helen Keller (June, 1880 - June, 1968)

            I am not giving up, I am just letting go. I am not giving up the fight, am I just choosing on what to fight over. I am focusing on my Rock, Jesus, my Bebe and me.

 "Then Jesus said, 

"Come to me, 

all of you who are weary 

and carry heavy burdens, 

and I will give you rest." 

- Matthew 11:28

           Just trusting in Him and His word, for He is all I have. When you realize He is all you have you come to realize that He is all you need. He will carry you when you need it, He will give you strength when ask, He will overflow your cup with peace that goes beyond understanding. God's peace to you and yours. Love ya!

...through the storm... i will rise!

           A friend of mine asked me, "why does God allow these [bad] things to happen"? If we are honest, I think we have all asked that question. I think that we question God and His motives when we are going through the storm. We wonder why God would allow such things and events. I use to believe the old saying, "God will only gives you what you can handle". I no longer believe that because, I cannot handle the storm; nor do I want to, we cannot handle anything without Him. I have realized that God gives me more than I can handle so I will lean on Him. God does not say, just believe in yourself. He says Trust in Me!

Proverbs 3:5
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;"

John 14:1
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me" (-Jesus).

It is not with us all things all possible it is with HIM ALL things are possible.

Philippians 4:13
^"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

        He is the One and the Only One that can handle my storms. He is teaching me lessons that I would not learn any other way and/or did not learn any other way. Truly this storm has taught me that I am not the master of this ship and nor do I want to be. GOD, Himself is the Master of my ship - my life and I only want Him to be in charge. I will man the deck and the sails when told. GOD has perfect timing and perfect knowledge so I am going to listen the Master Captain. He is the Captain of my vessel, Shepherd of this lost sheep, Life Guard of this drowning victim, He is My Boss - The BOSS!

 

         
      Through the dark valleys and the high peaks He is with me, I will never be alone; through the rockin waves and when I lose my focus He is there to save me when I call.

 Psalms 46:1
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."

         Remember we we feel crushed and feel we cannot go on He is your refuge and strength and is always there when you need Him. When we are overwhelmed and feeling weak He is with us ALWAYS!

Psalm 34:18
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

Matthew 11:28

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

Matthew 28:20
^"...surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”

            No matter how dark the valleys get He is always there, wanting us to lean on Him and His word for comfort and strength. So grateful we can trust Him and His word for we can trust His character. So glad that I realize that it is not about me being worthy but me having faith in Him and Only in Him (Romans 3). It's ALL about FAITH in the ONE who can SAVE no matter what our storm is or how big! Praise the LORD i don't have to do this on my own, i have some to walk through the storm with me and HE will not even leave me (Hebrews 13:5) through the storm no matter how big or bad it gets i will rise ALL because HE is my strength and my comfort!




References and pictures:

Jesus saving Peter - http://www.christ-jesus-is-lord.com/christ-jesus-sitting-on-his-throne.html/2_religious_1-132631

Psalm 23 - http://images.search.yahoo.com/images/view;_ylt=A0PDoKxptq9Rum4AG7aJzbkF;_ylu=X3oDMTBlMTQ4cGxyBHNlYwNzcgRzbGsDaW1n?back=http%3A%2F%2Fimages.search.yahoo.com%2Fsearch%2Fimages%3F_adv_prop%3Dimage%26va%3DPsalm%2B23%26fr%3Dchr-greentree_ff%26tab%3Dorganic%26ri%3D1&w=500&h=500&imgurl=www.letuspraytoday.com%2Fpsalm23large.jpg&rurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.letuspraytoday.com%2Fpsalms.htm&size=56.8KB&name=%3Cb%3EPsalm+23%3C%2Fb%3E&p=Psalm+23&oid=147dd25ba6035a6061f7f7242b6abf43&fr2=&fr=chr-greentree_ff&tt=%3Cb%3EPsalm+23%3C%2Fb%3E&b=0&ni=21&no=1&ts=&tab=organic&sigr=1181oq2nc&sigb=13dqmr54s&sigi=1179u7mua&.crumb=ATl7tvIAJR6&fr=chr-greentree_ff

People's hurtful words and actions lead me to the Helpful One.

I need to vent, so please bear with me yet I guess at the same time if I offend you, you can just delete me, I'll be okay with it. We've have being dealing with this for YEARS and sometimes it doesn't get any easier and sometimes it seems to get harder!

I understand people ask questions curiously on if you have children or not. I don't mind curious questions, it is part of our culture and really it has innocent intentions most of the time. But if they say no, don't give them 20 questions especially on this week of Mother's Day it is probably hard enough for them. Things I have heard this week, most I have heard all before.

People make statements and ask questions without thinking ahead.
How long have y'all been married?!! 13 years and no kids! *Gasp* say Why  not?!! Don't you know what causes kids?!! Don't y'all like sex?!!  What's wrong with you... your husband?!!! What did you do wrong?!! Don't you want children?!! Be careful about adoption, many kids turn out to be bad seeds and turn on you and cost you a fortune! If I couldn't have kids I would never adopt. I hope you really think about all this before you do this. Oh you don't want kids anyways, their whiny, mess a lot, eat a lot and are very expensive!

It is difficult for a woman who has lost children to know what to say when someone asks her, "oh do you have children?" When you say no, or in heaven, they replied, "oh I WAS going to tell you Happy Mother's Day" then walk off. Just say Happy Mother's Day and smile! :) Someone told me I am not a mom because I miscarried and didn't carry to term. Don't you dare say I am not a mom because I have not held them! Don't tell me at least you didn't carry to full term... at least you did not have a still birth. You know what I would give to hold my babies?!! You know what I would have given to hold them, to say hello before you have to say goodbye?!! You know what I would give to have a child, biological or adoptive?!!! Every dollar!! Every sleepless night! (I have those already.) Those children would be OURS no matter what! So, when you tell me that you wouldn't accept my child if we adopt well you can just disown me and De-friend me now! I am so sick of the non-compassionate, hurtful and totally uncalled for advice that people give without even thinking of me, my husband and our future kids. I should of done this a long time ago. If you don't like it, well you don't have to, but doesn't mean I will be stick around to listen to it.

Mother's Day is always hard for me; I miss our little ones! Why is it that when it's the hardest week of the year is here that I feel I the need to not come out of my house in fear of the heartless things people will say. Please remember the words you say have impact on others even if you have good intentions. It may not be a sensitive subject to you but it might be to them especially on Mother's Day.

Lord, help me know how to react to those who say such hurtful things. Help me to forgive people when I get offended. Help those who don't know what to say or how to say it. Help me to take a stand for what is right and react in kindness and love. Bless those who don't know better, help them to get a clue.

I don't know if I can say that God will give me a baby though I am studying on infertility in the Bible and each woman that I have found in the Bible that was barren - God closed her womb, He reopened to have her carry a special child. Sarah - Isaac, Hannah - Samuel, Rachel - Joseph, Elizabeth - John... I do believe that God does give us the desires of our heart, though a lot of the time He changes our heart to His desires. I am trusting His character because I can trust His word, I can trust His word because I can trust His character. My worship of Him is in not in what He can do for me but in who He is. He does not need to give me anything and He is still worthy of my worship. I am so grateful that when people say and do hurtful things I have someone to turn to. People's hurtful words and actions lead me to the Helpful One. Thank you LORD!

Who's life is worth living?

I know that this is a tender and sensitive subject with high emotions attached and our society says its taboo to talk about. I am not going to let that hold me back from sharing what I have learned and experienced. I am speaking the truth because people need to hear the truth.

This last month was the anniversary of Roe vs. Wade; 40 years of abortion being legal. I have heard many people shouting, “Pro-choice! Women's Rights!”  Though my heart now only hears the silent cries of those 55 million abortions done since 1973, and not just the aborted babies but also the mothers of those aborted babies. I am pro-life, not just for those babies but for all. The gift of life is for all, no matter the gender, development, disability, age, or health. We have no right to take life. 

In high school, I wanted to help out my friends when they were in trouble. I took my girlfriends to Planned Parenthood thinking I was being helpful. I thought these people would help and care unconditionally. They were never counseled on adoption or parenting as alternative options; only given an abortion appointment with no further explanation or information on the procedure.  There was just a quick talk expressing that they were too young to be a mother, and that they need to finish school and oh yeah, here are some condoms. Sadly, it took one too many of my friends going to Planned Parenthood to realize that PP was not helping, and that abortion was always their answer. Each of my friends regretted their abortion decision and suffered from major depression as well as addiction and suicidal thoughts.  Some even attempted to end their lives because of the great regret of their abortion decision.

Though I have never had an abortion, I feel I am guilty for each of those precious babies' deaths. I helped take my friends to the place where they were coaxed into getting abortion. My friends and I were lied to, not given the truth about the facts about abortion, including the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual aftermath of the abortion. I am not here to bash post abortive mothers; I am here to speak the truth about Life and say that there is forgiveness. There's not just forgiveness for me, but forgiveness for you, the nurses, the doctors, and anyone who will ask for forgiveness. God is the giver and taker of life. We have no right to take someones innocent life so we can live the way we want. –OR—We have no right to take someone’s innocent life instead of taking responsibility for our actions.

LIFE!! Who's life is worth living? Every life is worth living!

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